Portraits of Grace: Jeying

Portraits of Grace is a snapshot into the lives of the people at King's Cross Church. As "kingdom minded, kingdom people," we recognize God's work in every detail of our lives. We invite you to meet the people of our church.

I was once told that my life was like the movie Failure to Launch; that like the main character, I had failed to become a “real” adult. This became a source of shame for me as my whole life had been centered around the need to be both intelligent and successful, but here I was- a failure to launch.  The gap between what I had dreamed for my life and what reality actually was is something that I struggled with for years and truthfully, many times, I still see myself through that lens of failure and shame. I'm nowhere near where I thought I should or would be in terms of career, relationships, or life stage, but I'm learning more and more to trust in a good and loving Father.

One of my favorite verses is Proverbs 16:9: "The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." I'm struggling with, but seeing that my plans and desires are but a small part of God's plan, and that although I make mistakes, God doesn't. He knows exactly where I am and where I should be in every moment of life, and His plans and timing are way more reliable than mine ever will be. My challenge then, is to strive toward faith- not because faith is achievable by my own strength, but because His heart for me won't waver; to daily become more and more like the "glory-self" that He has made me to be.